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I'm currently having problems sleeping. It's hot and bright and I can't fall asleep until evening, which means I'm short on sleep, sleeping til just before work, and then can't manage to go back to sleep the next morning (since it's only been about 8-10 hours since I got up at that point).
I am cranky and miserable, and I just want everyone to know that I'm not avoiding you or trying to get away from you for any personal reason, I generally feel rotten.
Also, for those just joining me in my life, my grandfather died recently. Any question of "How's it been" or "How's it going" will get "Fine, mostly." However, if you ask me about something I was supposed to get back with you about, or something we talked about last, or anything like that, I may well explain to you that I've been kind of busy, both physically and emotionally, with a death in the family. And, you know, I don't really recall what that thing was, please remind me?
--Note: If I did tell you I'd do or say or write something and I've forgot, kindly let me know, and I'll catch up, ok? No hard feelings on my part for reminding me and I hope you're not too upset with me for dropping the ball.
I do wish that people in general were a little more comfortable with things like this. It's not that I'm trying to brag or dramatize losing a family member. What's happened to me is what's going to happen to all of us if we're lucky. (Where the natural order is to lose your grandparents and then parents, not to die before them.) I just wish people wouldn't act like they had never heard of such a thing as "death in the family" or "sad life event", you know?
I am cranky and miserable, and I just want everyone to know that I'm not avoiding you or trying to get away from you for any personal reason, I generally feel rotten.
Also, for those just joining me in my life, my grandfather died recently. Any question of "How's it been" or "How's it going" will get "Fine, mostly." However, if you ask me about something I was supposed to get back with you about, or something we talked about last, or anything like that, I may well explain to you that I've been kind of busy, both physically and emotionally, with a death in the family. And, you know, I don't really recall what that thing was, please remind me?
--Note: If I did tell you I'd do or say or write something and I've forgot, kindly let me know, and I'll catch up, ok? No hard feelings on my part for reminding me and I hope you're not too upset with me for dropping the ball.
I do wish that people in general were a little more comfortable with things like this. It's not that I'm trying to brag or dramatize losing a family member. What's happened to me is what's going to happen to all of us if we're lucky. (Where the natural order is to lose your grandparents and then parents, not to die before them.) I just wish people wouldn't act like they had never heard of such a thing as "death in the family" or "sad life event", you know?
